Heartless...

Why can't you see how serious the situation now?
Why can't u see my heart how it is broken now?
I trusted u
I believed u
You're the reason I give myself another chance to believe in true love
But now I dont think I will believe anymore

Thank u for tearing up my heart
Thank u for stabbing my heart each day
Thank u for making my heart cry every night

I guess u have found the real answer to ur heart..
Sayonara my one and only true love..
My heart died as you buried it in the ground..

Dark Angel

Dark angel.. - gothmazie

Whats this feeling in my heart
I feel so heavy n weak
My hearts beat strongly
When u came to me

I tried to ignore
I try to push u away
 my heart wont let me
 why is it have to be this way

Im scared of this feeling of falling in love again
Scared of feeling heartbroken again
I give all my heart n in the end i got scarred, beaten, stabbed..
What should I do. Im feeling so hopeless feeling empty inside..

Bcoz of that i decided to paralyze my heart n become heartless
But it wont happen
Heart cannot lie
Should i give myself a chance to open up my heart again?

I lie to u
When i say i dont like u
I lie to u
When i say we can only be frens
Is this the sign of the end of my bitterness?
Seems like my heart open its door
Coz i cant help myself
Im hopelessly in love with u..

Ive been waiting for dark angel to save me from this sorrow n hatred..
I cannot believe dark angel came to reach me through her angelic voice..
Im mesmerized by the voice
It weaken my heart n my soul
Ur the dark angel ive been waiting for all these years
Thank god ive found u
My dark angel..

Gothmazie 13/6/16

Missing U

Missing U
 It has been so long...
 I have waited for u..
Time flew day by day
The sky gloom its dark ray
 There I stood in the emptiness
Im standing here in the darkness
Wondering to myself

 Ive been missing u
Ive been thinking about u
 Please come back to me
 Ive been missing u

 I walk along the dark sea of loneliness
that is within me..
 feeling hopeless try to erase the pain away
wish this bitterness go away

 Ive been missing u
Ive been thinking about u
Please come back to me
Ive been missing u like crazy

Gothmazie 13/6/16

POSITIVE :D

A very saturday morning even though quite sleepy a bit. I always keep myself high spirited & positive energy to strive & fight in achieving short term goal per months. I thanked God because showing me the light full of love, wisdom, knowledge all the good positive things. I wanted to thanked especially to a very special person whiich is really a true friend, bestesr friend for showing a way to my bright future. Together will fight & strive. We will not admit defeat & will never give up. Any obstacles ahead will not going to pull me down. Because I am a champion to my beloved. I know success is waiting in front of me so I will not gonna stop till I reach my goal. woo yes!! Tonight will go to Kuching flight at 10 pm. Cant wait to meet other partners in kuching especially great mentor & leaders.

YEAR 2013, YEAR OF CHANGES

BIG WOW.... I decided to update my long lost blog last time & start with new things that is happening in year 2013. I thanked Allah S.W.T. because blessing with many wonderful things, meet many interesting & wonderful people in life that taught me many things in this life. Will update soon. :)